September 13, 2011
A lesson

All this is flashy rhetoric about loving you
I’ve never had a selfless thought since I was born
I am mercenary and self-seeking through and through
I want God, you, all friends merely to serve my turn

Peace, reassurance, pleasure are the goals I seek
I cannot crawl one inch outside my proper skin
I talk of love, a scholar’s parrot may talk Greek
but, self-imprisoned, always end where I begin

Only that now you have taught me,
but how late my lack, I see the chasm
and everything you are was making my heart
into a bridge, by which I might get back from
exile and grow man…
and now the bridge is breaking

For this I bless you as the ruin falls
the pains you give me are more precious than
all other gains.

(“As the Ruin Falls” by C. S. Lewis)

Filed under: note to self poetry :): 
at 12:19 pm
September 4, 2011
Driving is intense multitasking.

  • There are great demands from the hippocampus for directions and measurement estimations, which I am not particularly a master of.
  • I thank God for giving me a very patient dad. I am treated as an adult and I don’t feel like a n00b at all. Except when I press on the brakes too hard, too quickly. Like a knee-jerk reaction when I see a dog from three feet away. (Cue applause.)
  • I completely understand when my dad/my female boss/my brother, at times, ignores my stories while driving.
  • I am amazed at the accomplishment of singing Blondie’s “One Way or Another” while driving. Complete with key changes and such. Like a baws.
  • Imagine having to quickly change views: rear-view mirror, left side mirror, right side mirror, the road, dad. Intense. View of front passenger is unnecessary but unavoidable when the person begins to speak. Especially with me being the type who usually looks at the person talking in the eye. Thank God I am still alive.
  • This short attention span of mine has to go. It has to go to a far, far away land called Improvement. (Whut.)
  • St. Paul Road in Makati is a killer. We have double-parked cars on a two-lane road! And today at the end of that street during practice, I had the car wheel’s mags scratched against the sidewalk for trying to avoid the quick (SURRRPRISSEE!) apparition of a string of taxis entering the street.
  • And another realization: driving is where I practice my faith the most. Good job, self! :)

Filed under: note to self :) :| The List babble 
at 4:37 pm
August 23, 2011

“Framing rights into wrongs. Move along, move along.”

This speaks of me.

Filed under: :): note to self 
at 10:25 am
August 22, 2011
“Blessed is the one whose transgression is forgiven, whose sin is covered.”

— Psalm 32:1 (NIV)

Filed under: faith note to self 
at 1:05 am
August 3, 2011
“When we put things off until some future-probably mythical-Laterland, we drag the past into the future. The burden of yesterday’s incompletions is a heavy load to carry. Don’t carry it.”

— Peter McWilliams

Filed under: quote note to self 
at 12:38 pm
July 12, 2011
Today.

Proverbs 12:14-17

From the fruit of their lips people are filled with good things,
and the work of their hands brings them reward.

The way of fools seems right to them,
but the wise listen to advice.

Fools show their annoyance at once,
but the prudent overlook an insult.

An honest witness tells the truth,
but a false witness tells lies.

Filed under: note to self faith 
at 9:19 am
June 2, 2011
“Friendship is unnecessary, like philosophy, like art, like the universe itself (for God did not need to create). It has no survival value; rather it is one of those things which give value to survival.”

— C.S. Lewis (from Four Loves, which I should begin reading in full.)

Filed under: quotes books note to self 
at 2:56 pm